ok i dunno whats come over me. just feeling really down recently. maybe its the flu and the tiredness but it cumulated tonight and i cried on my way home. dunno lah i just feel so disgusted with myself and there are so many stuff in my head that is bothering me and i feel like im bursting but i cant tell anyone... i dunno y but i just cant. i just wish i could tho. so many things i keep saying i want to do and it seems like im moving in the right direction but actually im so far away and my inadequacies and hypocracy is really getting to me. dunno lah. i just wish everything could go back to the way it was. its been like more than a mnth and i find that im still off course and i dunno how to go back! save me